Why do I do that?!

Why do I keep it all in? 

This evening  I'm going to indulge a bit in the whining that this blog will have to offer.

Just a moment ago, I had the chance to let it all out. My wonderful boyfriend of 2 1/2 years just walked by our bedroom as I'm in here, creating I was up to. 

"Oh, I had a sad moment, I cried and decided to do some writing" Gee, if only I'd said that.

Nope! Nadda! I didn't say anything of the sort.

Instead I simply replied. "Keeping busy, I didn't know you'd be playing your game for so long."

So, now instead of opening up the opportunity to talk to him and connect, I've surely gone and aggravated him with my passive comment on his video game playing. 

Sometimes I just want to reach out and request his undivided attention for a little while. But as much sense as it makes in theory, when I become vulnerable in this way, communication goes out the door! 

I always find myself able to explain what was going on inside of my head when I revisit the situation with him in hindsight. 

I'm sure I'll get to all of that good stuff with him later. Or I'll just reach out in a different way after this post and just enjoy some cuddles... 

Either way, this night is likely to end on a more pleasant note than it has been on.

ANYHOOO! Enough of all that. Now for some CHEESE!!!

Today was my last day of the Extended School Year at the day treatment school I work at as a Behavioral Health Professional. 

Bittersweet. But I'm excited for all of my plans this vacation.

This means SIXTEEN days until I have to go into work for just four days for work shops before school starts again.

And when we return it will be my birthday and I hear there are many surprise plans for all of that! 

STAY TUNED...